In my younger years, time could not go fast enough. “Next week is Christmas” thinking of my presents. It is soon my birthday, again being full of thoughts of what I am getting. That another minute, hour, day, week and year is slipping away was not my concern. I had enough time left and of course I wanted to grow up, get married and have children, in between making the most out of life.
There we have the first problem. What is life? There are babies born and die after only a few hours, not being able to survive: they might be exceptions, but sad exceptions. They go to an early grave and have never known the meaning of time. The good years come when things start to happen. School is completed, time to travel and see the world. Other countries other times. Already on the plane you have changed the time on your clock, and hour earlier, perhaps two hours when you arrive. If you go in the other direction people are still living yesterday although you are in tomorrow: probably just a question of perspective.
My dad reached the age of 100 last year. What does time mean to him now. He is in a care home. Time for him is when his carer arrives in the morning and tells him time for breakfast. He looks forward to his breakfast. He then sits in his chair and doses off. At that age there are no times for sleeping or waking, your body tells you what the time is. Lunch time arrives, my father is happy and enjoys his food and sitting in his chair he again falls into sleep. Perhaps I might call him on the phone and he asks why I am calling so early in the morning, he has only just woken up. His perspective is more experienced than mine.
I am now approaching 70 years. Time has now become something for me to save, to look after, a precious possession because the minutes and hours are ticking away and one day the sand in the glass is no more. The Grim Reaper appears and tells me it is just a question of putting things in the right perspective and your perspective is to come with me.
I now have a ridiculous hobby of time saving. I have a programme. I know I do not need a programme, I am now a golden oldie, but organisation must be. I have finished cleaning and the bathroom is still occupied. I think I could perhaps clean a window, it only takes 5-10 minutes and that time is saved. In the meanwhile the bathroom is free I can have a shower – time saving of course. Tomorrow I have more time to spare. To spare for what, to perhaps save more time for later. I should have a bag of hours by the end of the week and empty them onto the floor, count them and use them, but in the meanwhile I have been sorting things and why – to save time of course. I will not have to waste time searching, especially as I do not have so much time left.
I noticed today that time has increased in speed, he now has a turbo motor, perhaps he is a computer programme. The faster he reacts the better. We are no longer impatient, we no longer wait, this is super. My dandelion also waits in the field until the wind blows away the seeds, but the seeds do not run out of time. They begin a new life finding a fertile place in the ground. What a wonderful circle of life they have.
We now live in digital time. It might be the television, the radio, your mobile telephone, iPad or computer. They all have digital numbers. It is quicker and you know exactly how long you have. You can even programme other countries, I know exactly when my online colleagues are sleeping or eating lunch, be it in America, China or Russia. Life is great, you can now watch the numerical digits ticking away until there are no more.
Of course, it is all a question of putting things in the right perspective. My iPhone tells me it is now 19.53 and have have written 700 words almost. Time to stop and hope that my clock is still moving tomorrow.