Daily Prompt: Courage

Sunrise 25.01.2018

The problem with courage is that you cannot buy it in a shop. Either you have it or not, and at the moment my reserve of courage is fairly well running out. Although you do not really have a chance to choose. I fell and broke my leg two weeks ago. Did the doc ask me if I had the courage to go through the operation? Of course not, you do not get medals for lying on a table and letting the surgeon do the carving.

I was either one of the stupid or brave ones that told the doc no general aneaesthetic. I was not being courageous, I knew that I suffer under the substance pumped into my lungs and felt like writing my last will and testament afterwards, so went for the whole awake thing, with an injection in my back to remove any feeling. Of course I felt the surgeon tugging somewhere near the leg, I could even see him thrugh the plastic sheet they hung in front of me, but only his head. What his hands and instruments were doing I did not see and did not particularly want to. The surgeon that got all the credit for the op just gave the instructions, his assistant did the work. And after an hour or two, it was all finished. I was  a little unnerved when I heard the drill which was going through my knee to insert a couple of metal pieces, but I was past caring. It was just noise, the rest was left to my imagination. They did not ask and I said nothing, just let them get on with it.

My next test of courage will be deali ng with the income tax forms – not to be compared? In Switzerland everyone is expectedto be a professional accountant. I leave it to Mr Swiss who now leaves it to an auditor. We are both now too far gone to play accountency, and it is all in the German language. I undersand the language, but not the workings behind it all, Mr. Swiss has explained it many times, but he is just telling me how good he is at it, or was. He just prepares the documents and gives them further.

I even needed courage today to write a daily prompt. I really did not feel like it, but here I am earning anther medal for my efforts, and now I have finished, my courage has now gone, and I need to fight my way through cooking a chicken for the evening meal.

Daily Prompt: Courage

30 thoughts on “Daily Prompt: Courage

  1. Sometimes daily life requires courage — like when we’re DIS-couraged. I understand that word so much better now than I did years ago. ❤ You show your courage when you keep getting up every day and doing what you need to do to heal your leg, even when you're DIS-couraged.

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      • Ah as I’ve been learning recently there’s more to healing than the physical part. But that matters, too. In my situation my brain and body know what to do, but the other parts, heart and soul(?) have been very torn. It’s been like a war between the two sides. Writing my blog has been a big help in explaining things to my heart and soul and getting them onboard with the whole thing. Maybe you’re doing that, too. ❤ Airfare to Zurich in October is only $740.

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        • I would never have stood it all through so well if it were not for the help and support from Mr. Swiss. We even now cook together, although he says under my watchful eye, and he has become a wizard at cleaning at home. My No. 1 son also now knows how the wash machine works in the laundry room. What could be better. Hope to see you in October and hope for good weather.

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  2. Please send me some courage, I need it badly. My husband is coming home today, after he discovers what the last caregiver did to things he probably explode in me.She went through all the drawers and change thing around. I have manage to put some back but lack the strength to do it all.

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    • Oh, that is not so good. Mr. Swiss is my carer at the moment and is diung a very good job. I will have a cleaning lady from next week for the bath, shower and kitchen and begin my physio next week at home.. my no. 1 son is also a great help

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      • Good luck with your caregiver. I have been upset with the one sent yesterday and what she did. At first I just put but by the time I found the roller for pies and cookies pull out of the refrigerator and place in a drawer. I lost it. I thought she was good until today and found all the things she had changed.

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  3. Courage is the will to go on when all seems just too difficult to move a muscle. I will have had 4 surgeries starting December 5th to February 28th. I really want to quit but I am not scheduled for anything after that date. I will be in casted boots for 30 days again. It’s not the time to quit and leave the job unfinished. Not sure if I’m brave or practical.

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    • I would say both. My broken leg is bad enough, but when I see the other problems in the hospital I can be glad for small mercies. Wishing you all the best and a safe recovery.

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  4. No one asks us if we have the courage to recover from illness. It is assumed we’ll find it — somewhere. We do. Even when we can’t figure out how or where, somehow, we find it. Depression following serious surgery is incredibly common and you might want to talk to your doctor about it. There IS medication for it and a short term bit of help from medication might make your feel a little bit better.

    I’m surprised they even allowed surgery that massive under a local. I’m impressed! But you are right: the general anesthetic does awful things to your lungs. It takes me weeks to cough up all that gunk.

    I shiver thinking of the drill. I have enough trouble with just my teeth. That would have totally freaked me out. Good for you!

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    • There are moments when I feel down. My doc is also specialist for depression and psychological therapy, she was the doc that helped me with my burn out. I am managing OK, every day a new start. Inam not a lover of meds, but when necessary I will take them.
      I was also surprised and glad when they said no problem, I was also informed that an aesthetic was on standby throughout the op if it would be necessary.. the drill was the surprise. No-one told me as a warning, I told the schief surgeon afterwards and he thought it very funny

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  5. Young people go on long treks to ‘find themselves’. Yet older folk face greater difficulties just getting to the corner shop each day…and it hurts. Hang in there Mrs AS you’ll be back snapping from your wheelie whizzer soon.

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  6. I would say that it took courage not to go under anesthesia during a major surgery like that. I know how endless recovery can be -I feel so for you. I hope once you start PT it will life your spirits a bit, I know it made me feel more proactive in my recovery

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  7. You are very brave. I was not given a choice of anesthesia for my surgeries. My doctor said, “no.” and under I went. I didn’t have a difficult time coming out of it, though. Thankfully it is done. Now onto my taxes. This might be my last year to do ours. I don’t know what in the heck Trump is doing this year….don’t think I want to guess, either. Better to let the pros handle that.

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    • I told the doc what I wanted and he agreed. They seem to be making progress with these things today. In Switzerland they expect everyone to be an accountant

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  8. This is the first I’m responding to a word press blog. Made one never really took on wordpress. From the Caribbean by the way. Just saw your post and made me smile although it really is a serious situation you’re going through. I just like the way you wrote. Hope your leg improves daily. Take it one day at a time. I had major surgery, where I had a kidney removed at 32, I’m 39 now. The’re just some things you can’t control. When they told me it had to be done I just didn’t stress about it. It being there was making me sick and miserable and I just wanted to be normal. I had no problems after that but as I grow older other things are cropping up and I’m younger than you I believe. It will take time and be difficult but it will heal, just try and stay positive. I have a whole list of problems probably do to genetics, I work as a professional, with kids and a ton load of stress and just say things will work out. That’s life, not all the times things will be great and work in my favourand I could never go through hardships forever. So do as the doctor says, dwell on positive things and all will be well

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    • You never know what life has in store for you and in my case now, accidents happen. I also have MS and have to inject every second day, which does not help. I will be glad when I can move around again, although I always needed a cane for support.

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  9. LIFE IS FULL OF COURAGE…not a single step in life we can move without courage..u know i sometimes think i want to tell anything to any person…but we cant tell that as we dont have courage or guts to tell the person..SURELY COURAGE IS OXYGEN FOR LIFE.

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  10. This is just what I needed to absorb today. I don’t think I really ever thought I had courage until someone actually told me recently that ” I sure had a lot of it.” I went, “huh? I never thought about it.” I’ve been very depressed and feel like a shadow of who I want to be. I’ll share my past year, and only because I rarely have up until very recently. A year ago in January I was in a near-death car accident and have had 5 major surgeries since then to repair internal damage. I can’t tolerate the demands of my career, so gave up the work I loved. I lost my brother and a close relative both to cancer last summer. Since August I have borrowed and managed to lose over $60,000 to an online company that was shut down and persons who have defrauded me out of it. I didn’t think I was very courageous for only managing to get up, shower, eat and dress each day. Most days that is all I can menage. But, maybe courage is accepting in my heart and mind that I’m doing the best I can today and tomorrow perhaps I can do just a little more.

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